Monday, January 05, 2026

The Night Of The Bombing

Thoughts about January 3rd, 2026

Outside the window in my city od Caracas.


Dear Friends, 


Many of you have called to ask about my family in Venezuela, and I thank you for that. It also allows me to explain something I hardly talk about. What has happened in my country over the past 26 years is surreal, confusing, and hard to explain. Hopefully, this bombing will mark the end of this era of repression. 
You see dance and music all over.
Joy is part of life, no matter how bad things are.

 You see millions leave the country in search of a dignified life.
They cannot make ends meet in Venezuela.
You see children learning music every day.
We are a model in the world.

You see people abducted, tortured and disappeared.  
We have over 1000 political prisoners, including 4 Americans.


Surreal it is. Today, we are on the front page, and Venezuelans are celebrating something the world is condemning. So, instead of trying to explain the broader chaos, I’m just gonna tell you about my family’s experience on January 3, in Caracas.
M. and S.


The house was dark and my mom and my sister were sleeping. The loudest bang they had ever experienced startled them. It was around 2am. S. woke to the loudest noise. It bounced and penetrated all the windows, shook the ground, and pierced their ears.  She reports hearing a sound so strong that it brought reverberations throughout her body. When we spoke, she had a hard time describing it,.  All she could say is that it was awful.
She jumped out of bed, ran downstairs barefoot and in her underwear, to see our mom. Found her also shocked.  Mami tells me how badly my sister was shaking, her whole body trembling. They hugged, frightened, squeezing their bodies together until Susi's trembling stopped.  They were both terrified and did not understand what had just happened. 
Bombings in the night Jan 3, 2026
Bombings in the night Jan 3, 2026


Once the initial shock passed, they sat in the dark, distressed: Would they have more bombs or gunfire? What if they had to leave home unprepared?
Picking up the phone, they saw scenes out of a war movie: fire, columns of smoke, explosions. Helicopters filled the sky. Houses with shattered glass and people running—families fleeing areas near the heavy bombing areas. I was seeing this too! And it was all happening in our city.
Our home is less than a mile from one of the bombed military airbases. My mom and my sister would not get close to the windows. Glass can shatter. Gunfire can reach there. 

Then there was the drama of the communications. I was alerted by my friend B. in Oakland: “Is your family all right?” And then I see the bombing with horror on social media.  For what felt like a long time, I couldn't reach them, and during that anxious period, everybody was calling each other to see if their families were all right. Thank goodness they were fine physically, but they were in shock—and still are!

Caracas skies on January 3rd, 2026

My friend G lives here in California. Her 91-year-old mom lives alone on the same hill as my family, but her apartment faces the military base directly. G watched live through her mom’s phone as events unfolded there: “It was like watching a movie—bombings, fire, hundreds of helicopters flying low—unbelievable!” Then it was over.
During that sleepless night, millions of Venezuelans watched home videos of the American military coming and going. Unable to control their need for information, they sent and received images and stories, hearts pounding, and people scoured social media and YouTube. 



News broke that Maduro had been removed from his home. Hallelujah!  The Americans took two- sadly, only two- out of a large team of crooks: Nicolás Maduro and Celia, his wife. Could this 26-year dream be really happening? The dictatorship has fallen? At last! Can't believe it—we’re rid of him!


Later that morning, shock still lingering, nobody wanted to leave their homes. If there were any events, they were cancelled. The big New Year’s lunch at my aunt’s was out of the question, not even to celebrate.  Everyone is in fear. Streets were empty, except for long lines to buy food, bottled water, and gasoline. People were preparing and trying to understand. 

Our emotions rollercoaster! : it's no use// yay! we've made it// get him out with fire// maybe we are too naive// when are they leaving then?

BREATHE

No one knows what’s gonna happen next. Venezuelans in Venezuela suspect, rightly so, that they will feel the repercussions of the angry, frustrated repressors left in power.  They will rule with tighter fists and more violence. Don’t go out.  Erase your phone. You could be caught and imprisoned.


To millions, he is a courageous hero! To me, his speech was repugnant and narcissistic,
even though I liked the outcome of his raid.


That afternoon, people listened to Trump and grew even more confused. He appointed another criminal as interim president, stating he would run the country through her, and he specifically excluded the democratically elected president and his team from the equation. He also mentioned a second wave of military activity. 
Confusion and fear prevail; optimists cling to the hope of a plan, even if it is unknown.

Left in charge of Venezuela are these other criminals, allies of Maduro 😫

Prudent joy, uncertainty, skepticism, exhaustion, fear, hope—these define the mood for people on Venezuelan soil. Still, we know that "the second wave" Trump mentioned will take place, and we want it. This second wave has to happen; otherwise, we’ll be in a worse situation than before. After all, today, a repressive system is still in place and intact.

 I can almost guarantee there is NO Venezuelans in this protest. We want Maduro to be ousted since legitimate, democratic, negotiated and/or peaceful transitions have been unsuccessful time after time.

In the meantime, in the rest of the world, this Venezuelan's elation is tempered by the world's disbelief: Trump‘s actions are highly illegal. No matter how happy I feel about the removal of Maduro, he has set a horrible, dangerous precedent. He has acted against all the rules established to guarantee peace in the world. He’s gone, like a cowboy, to take over the running of another country. 
“No, you can’t!” 
“Yes, I can: Watch me!” 
And then, he does!
He is used to doing things his own way.


We Venezuelans are happy for it. Whether cowboy or mafioso, usually the more powerful one eliminates the weaker one. We also want more: we hope the dismantling of the rest of the gang will be completed sooner rather than later!
For us, we know who is the lesser evil

So here we are: one abuser of power was hit by another abuser of power! 
What is acceptable? Was there a better way?  Ask any Venezuelan: To anyone who has endured 26 years of dictatorship, the US president’s insubordination is a lesser evil than living under Maduro’s illegal regime.

We deserve to live in freedom- LIBERTAD


As a final note, I’d like you to be empathetic with Venezuelans when we are happy with what’s happened. Please understand: Venezuelans cannot be more joyful for now and more fearful for the months to come.

People INSIDE Venezuela are afraid for their safety.  Fearful of those who are supposed to protect them. In the months to come, there will be difficulties accessing food, electricity, water and gasoline.

People OUTSIDE of Venezuela are celebrating, while inside Venezuela, people need to stay indoors and be safe from repression.




Thursday, October 02, 2025

Flash, bam, alakazam

 

My first Operating Manual, January 2023


There is a song by Nat King Cole that goes: 

"I was walking along, minding my business

When out of an orange-colored sky

Flash, bam, alakazam

Wonderful, you came by."



And this is how my Worthy Goal* became a reality - "Flash, bam, alakazam" - as a complete surprise. It does not look exactly like the dream I had, but it is close enough and special. I felt: 'Is this even possible?' 
 
My well-worded (and memorized) Worthy Goal* read: "I will join or create a community that is joyful and sustainable – good for the people and good for the planet".  Later, I made it into a meme so that I could visualize the feeling. It was published on The Conspiracy* site on January 13, 2023.

I'm pleased to announce that last month I joined an emerging community in Spain that is joyful, affordable and sustainable and good for the people and the planet. I am thrilled and ecstatic. I'm its 115th member, and if you'd like to hear the story, please keep reading below.

*The Conspiracy, Worthy Goal, and Operating Manual are terms used within a group of people who have read a book by Michael Bungay Stanier, “How to Begin,” - “how to make real progress on things that matter.” More info HERE



Flash, Bam, Alakazam

Three Years Ago

In January 2023, I joined the Conspiracy with one project in mind: to join or create a community that is joyful and sustainable – good for the people and good for the planet. It has been a recurring hope and dream.


From then on, I took many steps, some of which seemed to be all over the place and going in tangents.  During my first two chapters, I drafted a manifesto and created a keynote presentation to share with my family and friends what I was thinking. Essentially, I wrote down everything that I'd like for my ideal situation.


My amazing siblings, 2017


I presented it to my family, who thought it was fantastic —and also utopian—definitely a beautiful fantasy. "But not for me," they'd say.


One would not find rural life the right fit; others felt we were too old for this, while another couldn't think that far into the future. All shared different personal variations. In "Shark Tank" parlance, all of them called: I'm out! Yet, their logic didn't deter me at all.


Has It Already Been Forty-five Years?

In the land where I thought I'd be living
La Gran Sabana, 1981

It's been a long time coming, the dream. Since I was 17, I had a vision with my boyfriend at the time. We praised the joys of living in nature. We knew a perfect place. We envisioned creating an intentional community there, centered on education, art, food production, and more. He went to the jungle to make it happen, and I didn't.


Instead, I had the opportunity to attend a US university on a full scholarship, and I took that instead of moving to a pristine, beautiful land with rivers and perfect weather. Forty-three years later, I am still in the city I came to attend college, the foggy city by the bay, beautiful San Francisco. 


San Francisco, around 1995


Life happened. I raised my children here and supported myself through my own business, which catered to children and teachers, and found it very fulfilling. In San Francisco, I made friends with whom I play music. I have nature at my doorstep: the ocean that I visit almost every day. I have the mountains, the waterfalls, the rolling hills, the rugged coast. I also enjoy the jazzy joints, the quirky people, the rebels, the nerds, the disruptors, the opera, artists, entrepreneurs, and the diversity. I love San Francisco.


Yosemite, 2011

But also, I long for warmth, community, and affordability. My kids flew off the nest, and I don't have a neighbor to take me to the doctor if I'm in need. I cannot imagine myself at 80 with no help in this expensive city.  


Community is fleeting here. People come and go. San Francisco is a place for trying new things, being adventurous, starting a business, looking for gold, and breaking the rules, but it does not support regular folks—teachers, plumbers, nurses —and even less so as we age. Most of my friends have moved, or live farther across the bay, and my kids cannot afford to live here either.




Back to The Drawing Board 

Choroní, my happy place in Venezuela, 2017

Right before the COVID pandemic, I wrote "Twenty Years Is Nothing," a piece in which I described, with as much detail as possible, how I imagined myself in 20 years. I described my happy place in Venezuela.  Just so perfect! And, rather idealized. 


Next, I find the task of doing anything there daunting, under a dictatorship, with ever-rising inflation, lack of security or human rights guarantees. Way too hard to even think of it. The biggest stumbling block is how hard it would be for my kids to visit.  Nope!


Oaxaca 2022


I visited Mexico and fell in love with Oaxaca in particular.  I felt I could move there and see what would transpire.  I did not follow through; not enough impetus. That was the "latest and greatest" effort I did in person.  


My dream, 2023
My 3rd Operating Manual, 2023


In the meantime, I've been practicing methodologies for good living, self-understanding, my four brains, my demons, and hardwiring for happiness, as well as reiterating operating manuals. I've enlisted the help of coaches, groups, and webinars, and I have taken continuous steps towards refining my processes, planning, and organizing my Joyful Calendar. I keep busy trying to cultivate good habits, all of which often feel quite tangential. You get the picture.


Life continues. I focus on 1) learning about communities and community living, and 2) working towards a profitable online business that supports nomadic life. and 3) having fun! (I'm good at this). I practice by hopping from my mom's home to my home to my kids' homes and visiting possible places where to land later in life.



This Summer

Felix and I, 2010
Felix and I, fifteen years later, 2025


I had the golden opportunity to spend time with my 17-year-old grandson in Valencia, Spain, while he attended a music camp - this was truly great, a first for us, alone with no parents! I have never spent much time with him in a one-to-one situation- It was lovely.


Maru, Isabel and I, 2025

As usual, I connected with friends during my travels. Two high school friends and I, one whom I hadn't seen since I was 13 and another whom I saw maybe 10 years ago, gathered for paella.  We shared stories accompanied by tinto de verano.  The next day, Maru sends me an Instagram post about an ecovillage.  That same week, another friend sent me a post about that same ecovillage. Hmmm, I'm in Valencia, it is close by, about an hour away. Hmmm! I decide to visit.


Planes, Standing where I think my house is supposed to be, 2025


In a flash, I found a community that is "joyful, safe, affordable, good for the people and good for the planet." I felt it when I stepped into the land. 


In under two weeks, I joined the community and signed a membership that gives me the option for a home that will be built over the next couple of years.  


What?

Is this even possible? I am ecstatic. 


My judgmental self is calling me imprudent, and my free-bird self is encouraging me to go for it. I'm nervous. It is risky, and it requires a certain amount of trust, which my intuition says is a yes - we will make it happen.  I'm going for it!


Architectural rendering of the townhouse, 2025

One goal down. Now, on to the next Worthy Goal: building a community with my new neighbors.   


🌷


The Universe reminds me, again and again, how much dreams play a crucial role in making our wishes come true, and maybe,  it is also trying to point out how Operating Manuals are actually magical! "Flash, bam, alakazam" Ha ha ha!


Hope you enjoyed this true story.


Flash, bam, alakazam- what a surprise!


PS If you'd like to hear more about my newfound community, send me a message at rennea@mac.com